Void

This is how I feel right now. Like I'm taking my own insides out of me. Like I'm worthless and stupid, and I do all wrong. And I keep on telling it to myself. Over and over, and "killing" myself as I do.

Over all, it's not such a bad feeling. It feels... real. I wish I didn't feel anything at all right now, I wish I could fall into the void, how I usually do.
Though, I like how fear feels..... Yeah. I'd rather feel fear than worthlessness. But I don't fear failure anymore, I've experienced it so many times.


Oh, also, don't try to change my mind. It's not like I CHOSE to feel this. If I had a chance, I'd choose void.




I wonder why I feel this.... I just woke up this morning this way.



never mind me XD;